SCAR

Scar \skar\ n : a mark left after injured tissue has healed.

This is how Webster defined a scar while the Free Online Dictionary defined it as a lingering sign of damage or injury.

For me, a scar is what defined me. 

Atleast one particular scar defined who I am to myself, my family and the people close to me.

While others branded me a bitch this scar christened me as an angel in my Papa's eyes. 

And that alone matters.

Whenever i would hear people say bad things about me I try to find peace as my fingers traces this 8-inch scar below my right rib cage and then I am reminded that there is more to me than what these people see.

They are simply not worthy enough to see, feel and experience the good in me.

When someone i love, care for and close to me hurt me I find comfort as I feel my scar and tell myself that no matter how much pain this person may have caused me I know that there will come a time when i will do whatever I can for the love of that person and then my pain starts to heal.

My scar has thought me valuable lessons I would never have learned in any other way.
    
I came to know my worth because of this episode in my family's life that has in a way blessed me with this scar.
   
I began to really fathom that special bond a daughter shares with her father.


Most of all I had a better understanding of what a family truly is.
    
I may no longer be considered whole in terms of  body parts but in terms of the joy it brought me I have never felt this complete.
    
While the operation that resulted to this scar did not fully served it's purpose it has presented me and my family with new ones -  to unite and renew our faith in God, in each other and in ourselves.
   
A scar may be considered a damage by others, I on the other hand consider it as a catalyst to myself restoration. A reminder who I AM.
  
So when people make me question myself and my worth I have this treasure to hold on to and nobody can take that away from me.

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June 13, 2012 marks the 6th year anniversary of my father's
kidney transplant which failed 12 days after 
due to the blood clot in one of the veins where
the right kidney I donated was appended.

Despite that and because of our faith  in God 

we still have our dear Papa in our life 
providing us with whatever he can 
in his own fatherly way.

cRaZY 4 yOU

 the current apple of my eyes.............

                an addition to  my collection of lil' devils..........

(the future temple run master)

           the reason that makes me go home every weekends......

(with the doting LOLO)

 the alarm clock that wakes me up Sunday mornings........   

       









  
                                                                                 my joy, my stress reliever, my angel........                 

meet my pamangkin, Jenzhel Raine,  the seventh in my growing number of pamangkins, one of Tita Nene's HAPPYNESS!

stretching, breathing, farting.....

I've always wanted to give Yoga a try but because of my "farting" incident in an aerobic session at the office, many years ago, where we did a couple of floor exercises which entailed a lot of stretching - I have since then put this plan aside.

Though devoid of the toxic odor, the disturbing sound that echoed inside that room puts me in the spotlight and there was no way I can deny that it was me who farted.

Oh, I can still remember how hard the girl beside me tried not to laugh  or tried to laugh without a sound but sadly the uncontrollable shaking of her shoulders gave her a way.

And so, for fear of adding another embarrassing experience to my growing list I have never again attempted to join a class which will require a great deal of lying down, stretching and breathing.

Well not until the Ps. 100.00 per session right at the convenience of our own building offer came along.

Ignoring that fear, I registered and attended my 1st yoga class last April 23 and my 2nd class last May 8 without any accidents.

We'll I still have 2 remaining sessions left, I'll find out soon if I have already outgrown my old way of detoxifying........